LARYNX LET-DOWNS

NOTE TO SELF: BUY A NEW LARYNX. if the volume of your voice is lower than those of others around you, you're in trouble. i had a disagreement with the majority of my production group today regarding our next film project and felt that i should let them know what it was that i disagreed with. as usual my group had a lively discussion where ideas were endlessly bounced off of one other which i am a big fan of - i think its a great way of getting the best out of everyone to form a piece injected with a little dose of each person's creative talents. however, it got to a point today a few times where whenever i began to speak i would automatically be cut off by someone else and despite my attempts to continue speaking, my voicebox was unable to match the power and the levels of the other person and as a result most of my ideas went unheard. as i mentioned earlier, i am part of a very talkative group which in addition to reaping obvious benefits as i forementioned also has a downside in that if you were my position..you can't just wait for others to finish speaking before you say your part because several different points and issues get raised before any hopes of a quiet moment arrive for you to speak. this leaves you in the tricky position of struggling to remember how you wanted to present your original point as well as the multiple new points you had to make in response to the new issues raised.

today we worked on the script for our next piece which was where the disagreements arose. our director emailed a first draft to us all to give feedback and having read it myself last night, there were a few things i wasn't very keen on surrounding one of our characters. what i did next was maybe a wrong move on my behalf because it seemed to cause more problems than progression. what i did was i made tweaks to the script on certain lines to create my own edit of the script with my logic being "my director wants to know what i think of the script and how i would change it in any way". this included a change in one line from "where's the lucky layday" to "where's this mysterious layday?". i changed it this way because i didn't think the character should see himself as God's gift to women but instead just be a person who thinks that he is funny when in fact he isn't. i used the word 'mysterious' but in truth i didn't really mind what the new word may be as long as it changed that characteristic of the character. this caused more problems than i think was necessary in my opinion because it was just one word in the script that i would have been happy to change and that my group were also happy to change yet it was complained about for a few minutes. fairly soon after we read that line, my group decided to change the word to 'lovely' which i was fine about, job done, everyone's happy. this was not the case. whenever i made a new point about a new issue, for some reason the discussion would fall back to that one line and why the word 'mysterious' was the wrong word to use. this puzzled me because we had already compromised and changed the word away from 'mysterious' to one that we all agreed on in 'lovely'. i didn't and still don't understand this to be frank because i felt that instead of moving on to the other issues surrounding our film, we found ourselves stuck in a rut. i tried to voice this out again but as usual the quality of my voice failed me.

in conclusion, i am still unconvinced with our idea but still respect my duty of putting every effort into the piece because i understand that i am priveleged to have got onto a course as prestigious as this and that i cant stand it when people dont pull their own weight in a team through moping. i do feel however that the maximum volume of my vocal chords has let me down although at the same time, if someone starts to say something..perhaps letting them finish before you come in with your own point could help.